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“Hi. This is Erica from. Braman and I think. I’m trying to deliver your concern. I think I’m in your house. But there’s no what’s going on, and I can’t will tell. And we’re not. I love you. Hello, If you are up to the house without a light on, at night So if you could please call me back. I would gladly bring it so if you could. Have a good night. Thanks.”

 

Apparently:

1. Erica is in my house. (She’s from Braman. I think that’s in Ohio?)

2. She is trying to deliver my concern.

3. And, we’re not. (In my house?)

4. She loves me.

5. SHE WILL BRING IT.

 

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Hello, I’m Julie. Welcome to my little corner of the blarg-oh-sfear. After a brief hiatus, I have returned. Rejoice bitches!

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Do or Die

Tomorrow I am trading in my corporate title for a domestic one. All the deets coming up…

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Month One

Dear Baby C,

Well would you look at that? You’re a month old already and you aren’t dead yet. Better yet, your father and I aren’t dead yet either! This is great news because it means we must be doing something right, eh? Your first month has gone by so quickly that it’s hard to believe that just a month ago today I was absolutely certain I wasn’t ever going to go into labour. I kept putting off going to the hospital because I really worried that it was just another false alarm. But nope! Just a few short hours after arriving at the hospital, we finally got to meet you face to face.

See that face up there? That’s you in the hospital. See that face your making? You’ve made that exact face every single day since the day you were born. Judging by your already stubborn nature and your considerable willfulness, your nickname has come to be Miss Hissy. I wholeheartedly believe you are going to grow up believing that to be your actual name. Why? BECAUSE YOU HISS. ALL. THE. TIME. It’s astounding really that you’ve already mastered your first language, but neither your father nor myself speak Parseltounge, so if you could start talking English, that’d be swell.

See that face up there? You should do that more often. You’ve only been living here a month and you complain ALL THE TIME. The other day I told you to quit your bitchin and do you know what you did? YOU IGNORED ME. I’m begging you Miss Hissy. Please listen to your mama. Please?

See that face up there? DO MORE OF THAT ALSO PLEASE.

In all seriousness though, you are a good baby. You generally sleep really well, you eat ALL THE TIME, and you’ve started doing this thing in the morning when you wake up where you are actually pleasant. It’s a lot of fun and when your father wakes up in the morning to get ready for work, I make sure to include him so he gets to enjoy this part of your personality. I do this because without fail you start yelling at him once he gets home from work. Give the guy a break! It’s not his fault that he doesn’t have milk bags to suck on!

I want you to know that we’re doing our best here. And we’ll keep that up if you do. Deal?

Deal.

Love,

Mama

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Not at all like riding a bike.

You’d figure that with Baby C being my third child, I’d have this whole “mom” thing down. You’d be wrong though. Even when I was pregnant with her, in many respects it felt as though I was gearing up to be a first time mom. I think it’s because Girl Child and Boy Child are older now it’s hard to remember what day-to-day life with a newborn was like.

So, I’m (re)learning the ropes.

We started breastfeeding in the hospital and I thought it was going well until the day we were discharged when I realized that she wasn’t latching properly. I met with a lactation consultant who confirmed that her latch was far too shallow. She showed me how to fix it, but the damage to my poor nipples had been done. I started pumping the first night home from the hospital because of the cracking and bleeding. But, we got through it! And within a matter of days we were back on track.

The lack of sleep has been an adjustment, and I am certain that I’ll never enjoy another full night’s sleep in my own bed with The Boy, but I’m making it. Better than I thought I would.

But then, a few nights ago I made breakfast tacos for dinner. And that has been the source of the latest round of issues. Apparently, eating eggs and breastfeeding do not go together at all because the next day was absolutely awful. Poor Baby C had the worst stomach upset and The Boy and I had the hardest time comforting her and making her comfortable. It took a day to figure out the culprit, but I’m absolutely certain that’s what caused it. So once again, I am pumping until I am sure that my milk isn’t going to cause a repeat of that awfulness.

She’s still not back to her normal self, but it’s getting better and hopefully by tomorrow the fussiness will be almost entirely gone. Until then though, I feel like I can’t do anything for her.

And it breaks my heart.

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Five Years – #Trust30

Dear 5-Years-Ago You,

In 5 years you’ll be happier, more content, and stronger than you could have ever imagined. Don’t worry, it’s coming. ♥

Dear 5-Years-From-Now You,

I hope you’ve come to terms with the fact that the tough outer shell you were born with will always exist. I hope you’ve learned to love it; learned to surrender to it even. Above all, I hope you’ve learned how to share the sweet, soft inside parts of you that make you who you really are. Because that part of you? That part has always been the most delicious. Promise. ♥

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General Update

It’s been a few days since we came home from the hospital so I figured an update was in order.

Things are going so well. Baby C eats like a champ, sleeps like a champ, and is seriously the easiest baby in the entire universe. I had serious doubts about how in the holy hell I was going to take care of a newborn because it had been so long since I’d cared for one, but she’s so agreeable that all of those fears are completely gone. Easiest. Baby. Ever.

It’s been a little less than a week since she was born and I’m already down by 24 pounds. Having gained 61 with this pregnancy (and literally all 61 of those pounds were gained in the last 4 months), this is encouraging. I’m healing well and fast and in no time I know I’ll be back to my former self with no pubic bone pain or any other pregnancy related feelings of yuckiness. This is a good thing and a bad thing because I’m starting to forget just how incredibly awful the pain of pregnancy was and the thought of doing it all over again isn’t nearly as horrifying as it should be. I’m less than a week postpartum and I’m already considering doing it again? What the hell is wrong with me?

Tomorrow is the last day of school for the eldest children. This is good and bad. Good because I’m getting to spend a considerable amount of time with them this summer. Bad because boredom sets in fast and I give it a day before they are going at each other like wild animals.

Stepson is here and will be here until the end of the week. Our life is filled with general craziness but having stepson here makes everything feel complete. I wish he never had to leave.

That about sums everything up. For now anyway.

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Today – #Trust30

I’m participating in #Trust30, a 30-day writing challenge from ralphwaldoemerson.me.

Today (like yesterday and the day before that and the day before that) helps reinforce that the best revenge is living a good life.

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Birth Story

At around 9 a.m. on May 27 I started having contractions that felt different than the contractions I’d been having for the better part of a week. Even though they felt different, they weren’t all that painful and they weren’t regular nor did they last for longer than 45 seconds or so. I took the children to school like I do every morning and made The Boy go to work because I figured this was just another false alarm and after several trips to labour and delivery (including the trip due to my car accident), I had made up my mind that I wasn’t going back until my water broke or my induction scheduled for May 31st.

I ran errands that morning and continued having contractions but by around 1 p.m. they hadn’t gotten longer or stronger so I chalked it up to being false labour. Even still, The Boy decided to leave work early just in case. At around 3, the contractions seemed to intensify a little and had gotten to be a little more regular, still only 6-8 minutes apart though but on a scale of 0-10, they were still only a 5/5.5 so I figured there was still plenty of time to wait if this was the real deal. I attempted to take a nap but I just couldn’t get comfortable. At around 4 I decided to take a bath and even though the contractions were still 6-8 minutes apart, the bath took the intensity down to between a 3-4. After being in the bath for about an hour I figured it was time to get out so that we could start getting things together because something felt very different and I figured with it being rush hour on a Friday that it would take a while to get to the hospital.

After dropping the children off with a friend, we got to labour and delivery at around 6:30. The contractions were definitely stronger (consistently being between a 6-7) and were a little closer together, coming every 4-6 minutes. It wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle, but I figured it was worth it to go ahead and get checked, if only to see if I had made any progress from Wednesday morning, when during my routine weekly OBGYN appointment my doctor found that I was still around 3-3.5 cm dilated but not effaced at all. It took a little while to get checked in so it wasn’t until around 7 p.m. that I was finally assigned a bed and a nurse in labour and delivery. She told me that she was going to check me but her checking only lasted a few seconds (which was a marked difference than all of the other times that it took upwards of 20 seconds of intense agony). She was silent and immediately grabbed the phone out of her pocket. By her behaviour, I was heartbroken. I told her that if I wasn’t dilated more than 3.5 cm that I didn’t want to know anything and she didn’t respond other than to hush me nicely. I asked her who she was calling and she sort of winked at me and said, “Hold on. You’ll see.” I laid there for a second or two, completely puzzled until the person on the other end of the line picked up and the nurse started talking.

“I’ve got a patient in Bed 8 who is 7 centimeters dilated and completely effaced. I need the doctor paged because she needs to be admitted immediately.”

I started crying tears of joy because that was the absolute LAST thing I had imagined her saying.

It didn’t take long to be admitted and by the time I was settled, with an IV in place, I was already 8 centimeters. I had been adamant about not getting an epidural throughout the entire pregnancy and when it was offered to me again after admission I refused. The contractions were considerably stronger (between an 8-9) but weren’t lasting for any longer than a minute to a minute and a half so I tried to remain as focused as possible on staying relaxed and breathing. My water still hadn’t broken so I was free to get up and move around as much as I wanted to ease the contractions. They did give me a couple of injections of Nubain through my IV every hour or so to take the edge off of the contractions but after the 3rd injection at around 10:30 p.m. it was like they were pushing saline instead of any kind of narcotic pain relief and the contractions were painful enough that I started losing focus and was no longer able to stay relaxed. At close to 11 p.m. my water still hadn’t broken but it felt like I needed to push. My wonderful nurse checked me and I was finally at 10 centimeters so she guided me through pushing gently a little to see if it helped take the edge off of the contractions and it did a little but by that point the contractions were coming every minute or so and exhaustion was beginning to set in. Our nurse explained that she could have the doctor come in to break my water and that it would definitely speed things up but it would make the contractions a lot more painful. I thought about it for about 10 minutes and finally decided to go ahead and have that done. At 11:21 the doctor broke my water. During the next contraction my nurse had me push and immediately I could feel the baby coming out. I started to panic a little telling her what I was feeling and that I needed to push. She quickly checked me and told me that I needed to wait just a second so she could call the doctor back in because the baby was about an inch from making her entrance.

The doctor appeared almost immediately and I gave one strong push which brought the baby almost to crowning. Then, a flurry of activity began because the doctor was trying to suit up as fast as she could because the baby was coming right then. They kept telling me to wait but my body took over and I couldn’t hold her back any longer. After only 4 or 5 solid pushes, our daughter, Baby C was born on May 27, 2011, at 11:33 p.m. She weighed 7 pounds 9 ounces and was 19 inches long. Because it was only 12 minutes from the time the doctor broke my water until she was born, she has an absolutely perfectly shaped head which showcases her mess of dark brown hair beautifully.

Our birth experience was perfect in so many ways and went better than I could have ever anticipated.

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The Arrival’s Gate

“Whenever she rolls over, or kicks, or stretches her body in a way that makes me remember she’s there, I instantly see her as a naked, wiggly baby. She has a head full of dark hair, she has light coloured eyes, and she has fair skin (all of this I’ve already talked of), but she has your eyes. She has your smile.”

Head full of dark hair? Check.
Light coloured eyes? Check.
Fair skin? Check.
Your eyes? Check.
Your smile? Time will tell but I am confident.

Our daughter came rushing into the world on May 27, and she is every bit as beautiful as I imagined. Perhaps even more so.

Her birth story will be forthcoming (and soon) although it’s a story I’m not likely to ever forget.

Dear Boy,

Thank you for everything that you’ve done and continue to do to make all of this possible. I love you beyond what words can ever hope to express.

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